and you will see God
My visit with Father John Pack, a long-time family friend convinced me, beyond any doubt, that I had seen Jesus. When I touched and hugged my friend, I knew that I had physically held Him in my arms. To say it was a defining moment would be more than an understatement.
But Father John didn’t look at all like the image I had of Jesus. And no, Father John isn’t Jesus, he’s Korean not Jewish. Is he a holy man? Without a doubt. Is he a saint? Most certainly, at least to me. But in fact, he is a normal human being, flesh and blood, not God. But at that moment, when I really needed God, when I needed His presence so desperately, He filled my friend with Himself, and I saw God, I saw Jesus.
I would like to say that my life changed completely that day, but that would be untrue. Oh, it changed for sure, just not as suddenly as one might expect. It is amazing how resistant we can become to change, even when we know it is for the better. I fought God for a long time, resisted, refused to listen.
It was several years before I found myself no longer able to resist. I remember that day. I was alone when I happened upon a poem that I had read years before but had forgotten. As I read it gave new meaning to me. While a lengthy poem, it was the first few lines that jarred my senses and gave me the nudge I needed. It began:
I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;
I fled Him, down the arches of the years;
I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways
Of my own mind; and in the mist of tears
I hid from Him, and under running laughter.
Up vistaed hopes I sped; And shot, precipitated
Adown Titanic glooms of chasmed fears,
From those strong feet that followed after, followed after.
But with unhurrying case, and unperturbed pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
They beat — and a Voice beat more instant than the feet —
“All things betray thee, who betrayest Me.”
That poem, The Hound of Heaven, by Francis Thompson, spoke to me. God spoke and I finally listened.
Look into the eyes of a stranger and you will see, listen to the voice of a friend and you will hear, touch the face of someone you love and you will touch… God.